Thursday, December 23, 2010

2010-12-23

昨日是冬季, 第一次没和家人过, 汤圆没得吃, 格外寂寞..
人们说吃一粒大粒的汤圆就是长大了一岁. 我没吃到, 所以我没长大.
没吃到汤圆至少和家人过但没办法..
看见很多人能够吃到汤圆或和家人过佳节, 心里很羡慕~

竟然都没办法了, 就和我哥和他朋友们出去吃好料来安慰安慰自己~
当然饭后一定有娱乐, 就是去pub咯!
玩到十二点多才撤回.

出来生活, 遇到佳节的时候, 特别想念家, 但总是会有阻碍的.
爸说想几时回家就回家, 这里永远是你的家
对啊, 那里永远是我的家.
但有时我想让自己更独立些, 不依赖家人, 什么事情都能自己私下解决
不想让家人多一份的担心.
即使有时觉得害怕, 都得压抑下来.

有些事, 隐藏在心里就好.
就算再怎么有那个冲动想说出来, 都得逼自己住口!
说出来也未必是好事.

昨天也是我二哥生日~
祝他 身体健康 就好了!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

2010-12-16

最近心律不整
睡觉时心跳跳得比平时快
恶梦连续好几天
没办法安心的睡一觉

自从出营以来
身体状况越来越差
很努力地吃补品
但时好时坏
我真的没办法了
我该怎么办
我快厌倦了

final exam越来越近了
我尽力地去读书温习
我不曾这样做过
我在逼自己吗?
我不知道
我不会觉得压力大而哭
只是痘痘冒了很多

我尽可能地保持开朗
不让自己想得太偏激
但有些事情不得不让我承受
不得不让我去面对

我必须坚强



Saturday, December 11, 2010

2010-12-11

我身体又出现警报了...

上半身出现一片片红色的症状, 时不时还会发痒
我还以为没什么, 只要涂涂敏感皮肤药膏就好
几天过去, 我也没去注意它, 也忘了这件事
至到前天晚上, 发现越来越多, 害怕了, 但深夜了, 没及时打给家人, 第二早才告诉家人
就这样, 匆匆忙忙一个人驾车赶回家去
看了医生, 说皮肤毛孔受感染, 生瘆, 不打针不行, 不然会很麻烦
又被打一针了...

为什么说"又"?
今年下半年开始, 我一直关顾诊所, 次次挂诊, 也打了四次针 :

第一针 : 出营后, 脸皮肤感染,
第二针 : 注射HPV疫苗针
第三针 : 注射HPV疫苗针
第四针 : 就是现在这针, 毛孔感染

啊, 加上我上个月有轻微发烧, 但没去看医生

怎么那么衰?
排除注射HPV疫苗针, 就是不能给我安安静静地过生活吗?
今年怎么那么不利?

明年开始, 我一定要身体健健康康的, 好事近来! 不求别的了!





Wednesday, December 1, 2010

2010-12-01

说不伤心难过是假的
虽然跟我预料中的一样
但还是无法面对事实

我对我自己很失望
我努力的不够
听到没努力的人都能过关
那我算什么

我不能再这样下去了

Sunday, November 28, 2010

"Crazy" KL Trip
24-26 November 2010










now i notice that i took less photos = =... i just only took my friends photos, myself photo only 1 or 2 pictures only.
i bought 2 shirts and a pair of shoes!


a shoes from PADINI-VINCCI new collection, it is limited addition, worth RM109.
i just took this shoes photo because i love this shoes soooooooo much and i wanna show it here.
look nice right? i think so XD

**不管我自己有多高, 我还是坚持穿高跟鞋!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

2010-11-16

this time economics midterm result, i swear it will be worse than last semester!
i have done some revisions and some past year questions given..
but the exam questions were totally different as i did before!
wtf... but some of my frens know how to do, or i stupid?
shit! i cant admit!
but at least i can do some of it, only the structure questions dunno how to do only...
damn sad and dejected after pass up and came out from the hall..
I MUST BE HARDWORKING IN STUDY STARTING FROM NOW!! *ahhhhhh

and 1 more thing...
i am suffering for my skin so badly!!!
(so garrulous i need to mention my nightmare again)
before i went to PLKN, my skin was perfectly; but after the PLKN finished, wtf, damn bad!
ACNES! a lot of ACNES!
after changed skin care products, been nicer than before, but guess wat, my nose-wing very dry!
**crazyscreaming
what should i do?!
afterwards, just now i found a product, b-liv submerge me
it seems look nice after saw a lot of good comments..
but it is pricey for me as a student to use..
i think i need to talk to my mom... *cry

Sunday, November 14, 2010

2010-11-14

人的嘴巴啊, 真的不能乱乱说话, 我已经体验到了...

上个礼拜, 我和朋友说我已经很久没生病发烧或是感到不舒服了
哪知道过了几天而已, 先是伤风, 过后就是头痛, 身体比一般人感觉冷, 浑身烧烧的
说是发烧又不是, 可能是轻微发烧吧..

我没把这件事和我爸妈说
怕说了会更加担心我...
吃了哥帮我买的药两天后就好很多了
之前还很担心我能不能去考MUET, 现在都没事了...

说起MUET, 我敢肯定的我拿不到band 3了...
因为在这之前我没任何的经验去应付它
lecturer也没多加强调教我们技巧之类的...
相信我要多付一次RM60去报考多一次了...

明天考economic
加油吧!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

2010-11-09

i'm now using Body Shop Seaweed products in 1 set


















before this i was using NANO white brand















after changed, my skin condition became better than before..
but, why, my nose-wing became very dry than before!
so i use vaseline to moisturize the problem..



















but sometimes i would forgot to apply on, then the problem come out again!
what is the problem?
is it over-control oil result will be over-dry of my skin?
or the products i'm using not suitable for me?
should i use back the previous brand?
ahhh...someone give me answer please...
i wan become prefect skin girl!!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

2010-11-02

这几天真的吃太多太多了!
朋友们上个星期五来马六甲3日1游, 就带他们到处走走...
(说真的, 马六甲没几个地方可以玩的, 不像KL...)
在马六甲不是吃, 还是吃!
带他们去吃的同时我也吃很多!
肚腩也变大了...
本来还想说减肥的 T^T...

为了杀青, 今晚就和朋友们去吃buffer...
为了不浪费那RM20+, 当然要吃到够够!
就这样, 减肥计划只好搁一边先了...

我减肥很简单, 吃比平时少就可以了..
吃清淡加上吃多点蔬菜和水果, 当然定时 '上厕所'...
难免我会吃1-2粒的fibre, 容易排去脏细菌和解决便秘问题...

好了...祝我意志力能够再加强...^^





Tuesday, October 26, 2010

2010-10-26

dunno wat happened to me in this semester..
nine tenths no pay attention to the classes..
especially in human development, morals and english subjects..
these 3 subjects very very bored to me!
mid-term exam almost coming..
but i still haven start to do any revision...
how come like that?
maybe i am not interested in these all subjects so i dun have the mood to go study..
*sah yo na ra~

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

2010-10-20

i took MUET speaking test yesterday...
6.30am had already woke up because it started at 7.30am..
and i was the 1st group and also was candidate A in the group..
i didn't felt any nervous at all, just felt too sleepy..
and also i think that i will get low mark..
because one of my group member very talkative..
i wonder if she is taking law course..
not only her, other 2 of my group member also were very talkative..
isshh...
i can't, or maybe i dun have ability to contradict them..
so i just nodded my head to agree and agree with them..
and sure, i was a loser in this group..
so no wonder i get low mark..

this few days i with my group members are creating our video for assignment of subject Human Development
what is the topic we are going to create?
haha...still haven clearly decide yet...
1st time be a 'start', our all movement so unnatural..
and while we planning how to act and speak, how the take our act with camera, where we have to stand or stop...
there are a lot a lot! so we realized that how hardship to create a best video and how easy as a audience to watch a movie..

well..i am here wanna to say
we should add oil add oil in creating a best video!
good luck!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

2010-10-17

we have been more than 4 months cant online in our hostel...
we have been called many times to TM to complain...
then finally! finally, they came to our hostel setting streamyx yesterday!
WhooHoo~~
so we guess, my frens, ShiHui and YeanSean, they would be late to sleep everynight!
why? because even though before internet they can do something i dunno until midnight nearly to morning still haven go to sleep!
GOSH! super izzit? haha..
after have internet, we guess, they no need to sleep oledi...haha..

but now i in my hometown, i dunno whether how the condition of internet in my hostel now..
tomolo i will back to melaka in the early morning..
i'm so excited to online in my room, in my hostel now!
haha... dunno whether after have internet how my life will change LOL..
izzit i still will sleep early everyday or playing until midnight?
haha... i'm not sure...
after go through, i will post something at here..

well, good luck~

















Sunday, October 10, 2010

2010-10-10

After 2 weeks of final exam, finally i got my result





not bad right? yup, i am satisfied~

this week i spent a lot of $$, burning~
i bought 2 lens, 2 shirts and 1 skirt...
so crazy
so i have to save save save money..
cooked myself everyday as possible..
1 thing i can sure that my cook is not bad oh~~
hahaha...
and...finally i had self-capture oledi











look good? hehe...


Sunday, October 3, 2010

2010-10-03

有些东西...

酝酿久了...

到达极限...

就会爆发 !




Friday, October 1, 2010

2010-10-01

Foundation students' holidays very short, only 1 week long...
so fast, holidays is coming to the end...
very very very unhappy lor...
Diploma students' holidays having 3 weeks holiday!
UNFAIR !!!

going back to melaka on sunday...
during this holidays, i only eat, play and sleep..
big big bellyband is getting bigger LOL... (izzit called bellyband?)
but i had cooked a lot of spaghetti for my family..
i asked them whether spaghetti nice or not, they answered dunno.. = =
wat the...
i know why they answered dunno because we are not picky eater!
this is our advantage! haha...
but, it tasted nice, seriously ;p
sorry i din take any photo...

last, i decided to buy a pair of contact lens!
next week, next week i will get it!

Saturday, September 25, 2010

2010-09-25

在PLKN营里度过期间,我学会了一样东西
那就是朋友之间的坦白。。
在营里,我们必须适应的快、互相照应、互相帮助、互相倾听等等
‘坦白’ 在我们之中是最为重要的
有什么开心、伤心、不满我们都会互相分享
几乎是没什么隐瞒的
就算有,也都很快解决和化解
这样我们就不会显得很孤独孤单,即使父母都不在身边

以前我在朋友家人面前不懂得坦白
想说忍着忍着自然就会没事了,都会过去
在营里,我才知道坦白原来是那么简单
即使真相是残酷的,让人不容易接受的
但至少我知道我做了什么,做错了什么或对你做了什么
我会学会去改进我的态度,我做事情的方式
而不是什么都不说却在我背后和别人说我的不好和坏话
传到我耳里,我会觉得很难受很不开心
我是很记仇的人,我会很记得什么人对我做了什么过分事
如果能够坦白,我至少不会不开心,而我会想其它办法解决之间的问题

身边有几位朋友不懂得坦白
也让我不知怎么跟他们坦白
只怕他们不容易接受而显得尴尬。。
下雨天的晚上,宿舍里,我站在窗前沉思着
天气很凉爽,身体自然感觉很舒服,但心里却不是
手,不知觉的去接触雨水,滴答滴答在手心
好久没这样了,很怀念。。
然而,心里的不快还是没消失。。
是我不够了解他们吗?还是他们不够了解我?
有首歌唱着一句:看起来朋友很多,知心没几个。。
对的,我唯一能够坦白的就那么一个
目前都没任何的问题,只希望我们能相处得更好!
谢谢你们的好和照顾。。。

放空,不代表我不在想
反而我会想到更多、想得更多、想起更多
也许有一天我对你的态度突然转变也不能怪我
也许因为我发现了你丑陋的一面
有时候我喜欢独来独往,我觉得无所谓
不受任何干扰,自由自在
可以大声唱歌、乱喊乱叫,没人会嫌你烦嫌你吵
有时候这样过也不错的。。

我想,我该停止想了。。
再想下去,也于事无补。。。

Monday, September 13, 2010

2010-09-13



在我还没上来马六甲MMU读书的时候

我自认为
我能够每天出街走走
哪知道我必须顾虑到车油费

我自认为
我能够每一个礼拜去狂shopping
哪知道必须顾虑到父母赚来的钱不容易

我自认为
我可以每天打扮漂漂亮亮的去上学
哪知道起身吃早餐的时间也没有

我自认为
马六甲会很多每天不一样的食物吃
哪知道几乎每天一样的菜色让我很反胃

我自认为
我终于可以自由选择时间什么时候睡觉
哪知道明天多数是早课

我自认为
我可以和朋友们出夜街狂玩一番
哪知道我必须提醒我自己宿舍的安全性

我自认为
即使在宿舍我也觉得不无聊因为有得上网做些什么的
哪知道申请了近三个月streamyx都还没来安装

我自认为
我离家出来读书不会觉得无助
哪知道每次回家都觉得回家好幸福

这一切的一切
全都不在我预料之中
相反的,我学会怎么去控制消费,体谅到父母赚钱的辛苦
相反的,我知道刻意打扮上学不是我来读书的目的
相反的,我知道妈煮的食物是世上第一的美食
相反的,我知道如何控制我的睡眠时间
相反的,我发现人性的丑恶面
相反的,我终于了解TM的烂服务
相反的,我爱我的家


Saturday, September 11, 2010

2010-09-11


That's what they did on my MyVi car which happened at my apartment's car park on Merdeka Day!
The rude word was at the driver's door site and the '?' was at the behind right hand side door.

On that day i was back to Melaka. At that time they were some Malay guys gathering at there.
i was not surprise becoz always have some Malay guys gathering at there.
After around 2 hour, my friend, BeeTin back to Melaka and told me that was a drink on the top of my car.
i was not surprise also becoz always have some monkeys playing around car park there, very terrible right?

On the evening around 6pm more, my friend, WenYe and I were hungry and decided to eat.
We arrived the car park and as BeeTin said there was a drink on the top of my car.
i picked it up and throw it away....but what out of my expected is there had big marks on my car!!
FUCK!! i was so angry and phoned to all my family members told them what was happened on my car!!

我现在要写华语避免非人类可以了解...
在那时候我马上怀疑的是马来人!
别说我种族歧视,那饮料是马来人常喝的粉红色饮料,我不知叫什么名...
就像我之前说的,常常有马来人集聚在那里...
我有印象的是我在car park的时候就看见有两个马来人在喝饮料...
这些供词足够怀疑是他们干的吧?
而且这两个月里国家的种族歧视越来越严重,不怀疑他们会拿我的车发泄...
也或者他们看我一个女子的好欺负...
我说的都是根据现场、往常和近来所发生的事做推论,别说我只针对马来人!

只从这件事发生在我身上后,难免我对马来人感到更厌恶!
为什么加个‘更’字呢?在这件事发生之前,也有另一件事发生在我身上,而且是差点送命!
来马六甲路上,一个转弯几乎看不见对面的车,我当时的车速大概是90吧...
有一帮没戴安全帽驾驶摩多车的小孩子在对面路驾驶过来...
待我看清楚后才发现其中以辆吃多来我这条路而且就快要撞上了!
我马上转左闪他,因为车速有点快加上有沙石,我整辆车突然转向右边的路!
整辆车我可以说是S字型走的!
很幸运的是对面没车,不然我不可能在这里写blog了...

这两件事的发生,我没能对他们不厌恶!
觉得为什么他们特别的没 nao + chi dun !
现在facebook上载很出名 + 丢了我们马来西亚的脸的video..



就是这一个video,看了我完全无言....
他律师证是不是买来的?一直被被人嘲笑,他还有脸继续说话...
speaking skill 又那么烂,推理也离谱,唉....

在这里,我只能说马来西亚没希望了...
我也更不喜欢马来人了!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

2010-09-08

today was a boring day...
but i had my sunshine day...
it made me felt very sleepy although i woke up at 11.30am today...

mother is not around me this few days...
i have to keep my house clean and wash all the dirty clothes...
i dunwan to sweep the floor becoz i hate to do that...
never mind my maid tomolo will coming to my house and settle all..

final exam is coming...
but now i dun have the mood to do the revision...
i have no idea on economics and accounting..
some part of them i dunno at all...
how i sit in the exam?

now, i still sitting in front of pc playing the games and searching...
who can rescue me?

Monday, August 30, 2010

2010-8-30

很好
TM人终于来宿舍按电话线了

很好
他七早八早打电话吵醒我说要来按线

很好
我还有很多样coursework要做

很好
我假期到拜二才上回马六甲

很好
在家里除了做coursework我就快闷死了

很好
今天是礼拜天我朋友艳欣的生日

很好
每次我回家我一定会有大肚腩

很好
我喜欢上周汤豪新专辑里的歌了

很好
这星期我将会花很多很多$$$$$$

很好
我想看我最爱的AVATAR但only available in 3D

很好
又很多场戏我超想捧场的

很好
我太久没自拍了变得生疏了

很好
没新照片可以来更新

很好
发现有些朋友都没联络了

很好
我没话说了


**以上是本人最近的想法

Friday, August 27, 2010

2010-08-27

打从我出营后我的身体状况一直都没好过...

荷尔蒙失调一直维持着,导致脸上的痘痘时好时坏...

原以为我用错了产品或者是生活规律不正常造成的...

痛苦了两个多月直到今天才知道是什么原因了....

就是我的“好朋友”

“好朋友”停了一个星期后又来拜访我了!

这两个月以来平均一个月拜访我两次...

难怪我脸的皮肤状况从没好转过...

之前我用的products是Nano White

现在换去Body Shop 的products 了

很好用,我的皮肤也好转了很多!

现在需要做的是吃保养品好好调理好我的身体状况

相信很快就能恢复吧!

自信起来!!!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

2010-08-21

每一次回家一定有功课要做,那功课像跟英文功课脱离不了关系...

这次也不例外,只不过另加一样东西要处理-----PTPTN

现在读书的人都知道什么是PTPTN...


我终于申请到了,不多也不少,RM8,000 而已


唉....


其实我也没什么东西要在这里讲


每天都过得很充实,吃睡玩读,都没什么了


只是到现在都没有Net可以上


他们马来人都不知道在搞什么鬼,要他们做东西总是拖


我也麻木了...不催了...


我在想我要不要考虑买broadband呢?


.....


今天去剪了超短发,剪了自然想染


我不管我父母反对了,我自己去买染发剂自己染!


现在流行泡沫染发剂,我买来试用看看呢!


反正RM38 不是很贵...


嗯...


就这样 XD



Saturday, August 14, 2010

2010-08-14

this Wednesday wen ye and I went to Jusco shopping because that day was melaka public holiday so we dun have class...

i bought not so many things but bought a bag worth RM90+ from Vincci, the most expensive bag so far...

i want to find a bag for a long time, but no one is satisfied, until i found it..

after get my parents permission i juz dare to buy...

i had burned amount RM160++ for this time shopping...

so started from now until the end of next week i wouldn't buy anything except EAT..

and i also wouldn't take the money out from ATM although my pocket money now only have RM40+..

i also dunno and wonder why i wan to save costs...

mayb since i came out to study here, i started to know i should save costs as well...

and i know my parents gain the money is not easy...

now i got what i always wanted...maybe...is enough...

thx my dear parents...

....

is cool here in library...

i was alone here...listening musics and online... no ones chat with me until i leave the library...

is going back to apartment and excited to c wen ye new hair colour!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

2010-08-07



temporary, now is not the same.

i have my own laptop i have my own transport, but i dun have net = =

last Sunday together wif my family went to PC fair at malacca to buy a laptop and other accessories for me.

without net, i cant do anything also! GOSH!

cant stay at apartment searching the information from net if needed..

is needed to rush to my campus to online and find the seat together wif plug = =

TM ah TM... please lah... i need net ah...


lets talk about my mid-term test results..

accounting and economics subjects is OK, pass~

i only worry about my business maths subject becoz in my test i calculated i have loss 18 marks out of 50!

*crying without tears...(欲哭无泪?)

i think i will failed this test... *sigh


now im doing my english's essay...

but im blogging ?! yup....

so i have to stop now...

after finish essay have to do assignments T^T....

good luck to me!




Sunday, July 25, 2010

2010-07-25

多少百年没上来这里了。。。

没办法。。。我没电脑也没internet。。。

TMnet 又不来安装。。。唉。。。

明天下午有presentation 晚上有midterm test。。。

可是我还在用朋友的电脑上上网。。。

为什么我不让自己紧张呢?

还是说它们没给我紧张感?毕竟它们都是我的第一次。。。

唉。。。算了。。。

公主就要出新专辑了!我相信这一次的专辑一定比上几次的专辑更震撼!!

听了她的主打歌,已经可以打包票了!

唯一感到失望的是我没能预购耳机专辑版。。。

我只预购写真版的。。。

因为已经over my budget了。。。

唉。。。算了。。。

还有。。。

我想要 clubbing 啊!!


Saturday, June 19, 2010

2010-06-19






FINALLY!! I FOUND U AT SUNWAY PYRAMID AND I GOT U !!

actually when i got it was on April..

i asked Latuk to buy it becoz the moment i dun have courage to buy it immediately...

from tht day i started to consider almost hundred times whether i should buy it or not...

becoz this set of comic books was limited n quick close out of print... the main point is I ❤ Sailormoon soooooooooo much! *LOL

Latuk is kind... he helped to buy it! THX A LOT!!

this set of comic books belonged to my collection now~ ❤

i will care it n love it always~


2010-06-19

(去年因为贪新鲜而开的...)
(现在正式用用看..)



(为了我的蔡依林而开的中国网站 -- 新浪微博)
(类似 twitter..)



Saturday, June 12, 2010

2010-06-12

to cut my hair today~

short and fresh~

no more hot, no more confusing~

back to the basic~




opps... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 阿龟 and WongMin~

take care and wish all ur dreams come true~

have a happy day~


2010-06-12


first time attended classes in MMU... freshing~~


Saturday, June 5, 2010

2010-06-05

I'm not a lazy blogger... I really not a lazy blogger!!

Last Sunday I moved to malacca to study in MMU...
but actually my classes is started on 7/6, i juz went to attend orientation day...
after tht day, i missed many days of group activities until yesterday Friday went to campus to attend course registeration...
after finish it, my fren fetched me back home...

In those few free days, i dun have transport and computer including net...
freaking bored!
forced myself to watch 8tv or read novels...
breakfast was milo + biscuits + breads, no lunch, dinner was maggie...
pity izzit?
actually i have transport, but it was a van!
a 'great' services offered by my apartment, BBU...
quite slow to fetch me to a location because they have only ONE van !!
sometimes it would late!
damn it.......

temporality... no transport, no computer, no life...
thts y i cant blogging...



*omg... izzit very bad of my broken english?
shit... i have to improve...
u're allowed to laugh loudly...


Friday, May 28, 2010

Environment of Kem Karisma -- Part 1

环境篇



我两个月来一直呆在的地方... (牌也不会换换..)
地点在一个kampung里面还要偏僻...
路途上还可以看见有一小块地是马来坟场, 也难怪那么多传闻camp里闹鬼...
不少的马来人居住在附近, 还有件工厂...
camp的四周围都是油棕塑胶树, 在后方就是一大片森林...



进入像监狱般的铁门, 就能看见宽阔黄泥水的水池, 一看就让人觉得不舒服...




水池上方就是操步场和一些阻碍游戏场



车和巴士停车场


医学药物, 知识, 设备和护士医生都烂到不行的medic...


canteen n hall...
苍蝇多到不行, 环境肮脏, 很多小鸟在屋顶上, 分分钟你还回中 '头奖' !!
桌子上常常有很多 '黄金' + 厚厚的灰尘...
常常没人理会照样在上面吃食物... *vomit

canteen 后方就是女生宿舍和男生宿舍, 男生宿舍比女生宿舍还要远...


女生宿舍


专属于我和朋友们的房间.. 呵呵...很乱 ;p
刚搬进来时简直肮脏到不行!! 蜘蛛网, 灰尘, 头发, 什么都有! 恶心死了!
bathroom我更不想去说... ==||


总结来说 :

环境很肮脏, 水不干净, 食物不营养, 设备不全...

刚进来很辛苦很难过每天以泪洗脸...

很抱歉实在不想再回忆起了...

照片不多... 因为那地方没什么好留念的...

hazz... 我都觉得这post很无聊叻... ><


** Pictures provided by n.s. friend Vivian Tan